📎: PRELIMINARY PROTOCOL FOR THE TRINITY CALIFORNIA REGIONAL MEETING

 

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TO: Jamie<Jamie@darkriver.net>

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Jamie,

as you got me drunk on the vapor of all the blue beer alone you were jugging with your visiting polar bear buddy last night, and you are up nice and shiney while I have the hangover of the century, please fix the mistakes in this and make sure I still have a job tomorrow! 🥴 🤢

📎: PRELIMINARY PROTOCOL FOR THE TRINITY CALIFORNIA REGIONAL MEETING

Participants:

Lucas Hunter and Sascha Duncan (E-Psy), Dorian Christensen and Ashaya Alleine (M-Psy), Faith NightStar (F-Psy) all Dark River (DR), Hawke Snow and Sienna Lauren Snow (X-Psy), Judd Lauren (TK-Cell), Alexei and Memory Aven-Rose (E-sigma) all Snow Dancer (SD), Adam for Wind Haven (WH), Tejian for the Rats, BlackSea doesn’t have a resident liaison, but will be informed.

Nikita Duncan and Anthony Kyriakus, residents and part of the Ruling Coalition, a pregnant Sophia Russo (J-Psy and strange anchor) and Max Shannon, Bjorn Thorsen, a non-cardinal Californian hub-anchor (Tangle of Need) also part of the Anchor Representation Association (ARA) ‘s advisory board (Last Guard p.123-125). Samuel Rain declined attending this meeting, he just had a new idea regarding Vasic’s robotic arm. Ivan Mercant has been invited to the meeting but is still pretending he isn’t a Mercant (thank you Bear spies 😊) [If he is spying on us, he can contribute to the area as well. (Last Guard)]. The Enforcement vice commissioner, a middle-aged Psy woman with unusual papery white skin (Heart of Obsidian, p. 317-318) was not invited to this meeting. The Forgotten don’t have an official liaison yet.

Jim Wong, an elderly human male of Asian descent as the representative of the shopkeepers in the warren of Chinatown and a tall black male as the liaison of the Human Alliance (Heart of Obsidian, p. 317-318).

General update:

• According to research by Alpha-Z the Net was never supposed to be only populated by Psy. Their conservative estimate is that at least 25% of the Net population before Silence – via relationships with Psy – was made up of humans. (Wolf Rain, p. 106)
• “Unless thousands of humans fall in love with thousands of Psy within the next twelve months, it [the PsyNet] will collapse.” (Wolf Rain, p.108)
• The PsyNet needs a lot of new Anchors initializing like yesterday! They need to hold the Net in place and care for the Substrate, fill it with psychic energy (Last Guard).
• The Net Mind and Dark Mind have reconnected into one but fractured just as well. A small part of it hid away in the mind of Sophia Russo (Last Guard).
• The PsyNet is still rotting at an alarming rate.
• The Empaths are all on the edge of burnout.
• Tp-A-Psy like Silver Mercant need a solution for their audio channels when letting go of Silence, if there are even any others alive. DNA therapy would be way safer than the operation and seeding of the brain with biofusion tendrils (Silver Silence, p.319-334).
• The PsyNet around Psy with mating bonds with humans: Sophia Russo, Clara Alvarez and Stefan Berg and Psy with bonds with dominant predatory changelings: Silver Mercant, Memory Aven-Rose and Ehtan Night is healthier, stronger … solid (Wolf Rain, p.390-392).
• Bowen Knight’s implant is still stable. The experimental and risky procedure to fix the failing Human Alliance implant, is rolled out one after the other in the order of implantation by Dr Kahananui (Ocean Light).
• There still is no other solution for humans to block Psy intrusion. The Aleines are working on an implant version for humans (Silver Silence, p.295) as is a team that Kaleb put together, without sharing the Aleine’s process to stay open for other solutions.
• There are still BlackSea people missing, that need to be found. And tracking KJ needs to be successful (Ocean Light, p.390).

Anchor update:

• All anchors with attached “weeds” can attach those weed tendrils to Canto Mercant “so that if one day we do have no choice but to cut the Net into pieces, we can keep the Substrate together, so no one anchor starves.” (Last Guard, S. 353)
• California has 20 anchors with 200 backup anchors. Of the 20 anchors are 3 cardinals (hubs), the rest are secondary anchors, secondary hubs. Additionally, Sophia Russo resides there, a strange anchor (Tangle of Need, p. 345-346).
• Sascha Duncan and Judd Lauren have the files with the pictures and locations of all the anchors in the region (Tangle of Need, p. 413).
• Jaya Storm (E-Psy) is researching "how childhood trauma may affect the development of psychic pathways in all children, and anchors in particular." (Last Guard, p. 278)

California region update:

• Pax Marshall, aka Patient Zero is still here frequently for his therapy sessions with Memory Aven-Rose (Wolf Rain, p. 375-377).
• Memory Aven-Rose, a local member of SD is the only one to clean the PsyNet of the sickness (Wolf Rain, p. 357-359). 
  
• The training center for Empaths is still active (Wolf Rain), also hosting meetings for the teenage Arrows with changelings and humans (Shards of Hope or/and Allegiance of Honor).
• Sascha Duncan (E-Psy) is the resident wizzard shield technician, consulted by Psy of all Designations (Arrows, Anchors, Forgotten, ...) for custom shields (ie.: Alpha Night; Last Guard, p. 278)
• Ashaya and Amara Aleine (M-Psy) live here.
  
• Samuel Rain lives here still (Shield of Winter).
• California has more stable PsyNet regions than any other area in the world with Sophia Russo, Clara Alvarez, and Memory Aven-Rose living here (Wolf Rain, p. 390-392).
• We have the best spy organization in the region. (Heart of Obsidian, p. 318) River is good friends with them (Last Guard).
• Ivan Mercant moved here, so the Mercants have on of their own on the ground and to know what is going on here firsthand (Last Guard).
• Something is going on between Nikita Dunkan and Anthony Kyriakus (mentioned in every Book since Nikita was shot in Shards of Hope, i.e., Allegiance of Honor, p.129). They both call California home still.
• Clan NightStar is there, “has a small base right up against Dark River land” (Wolf Rain, p. 134).
• The Pure Psy attack on SF also brought the “normal people” of all three races closer together (Kiss of Snow). Further seen when the mercenary lion team attacked Sascha and Naya in the Presidio. The human residents called the accident in to DR, they helped tie up the assailants. Not only members of the DR pack responded immediately, but also Indigo and Drew, Teijan and Max Shannon (Allegiance of Honor, p. 154-159).
• Dr Maia Ndiaye, a 9.3 M-Psy with a specialization in neurology works at PsyMed SF Echo and is the current specialist for Scarab Syndrome (Alpha Night, p. 301). 
  

Scarab update:

• Scarab powers are an imminent threat for the PsyNet. There are many. Ethan can see the lightning echoes, their signature all over the PsyNet (Alpha Night, p. 302).
• Many sufferers of Scarab Syndrome are not being treated according to Dr Maia Ndiaye at PsyMed SF Echo. Melody can help some, but not all. If they go beyond a certain stage, they cannot be helped at all.
• Only Patient Zero saw Empaths as the enemy and attacked them (Wolf Rain). Later Scarabs didn’t attack Psy of one specific designation but followed the orders of the Spider and pushed energy into a certain part of the PsyNet (Alpha Night, p. 343).
• Memory Aven-Rose, the only E-Sigma to date, can clean the PsyNet of the sickness (Wolf Rain, p. 357-359).
• Ethan Night, the only other “new” E so far, can see Scarab powers and their energy tracks on the PsyNet. He can also track “sufferers of Scarab Syndrome when they begin to lose control and surrender to the urge to free their powers” (Alpha Night, p. 301).
• Kaleb Krychek and Aden Kai stitch the PsyNet fractures together most often, with other high level Psy able to deal with smaller ones. The fractures are always also fixed in the Substrate by Achors (Last Guard).
  

F-Psy forecast updates:

• The Queen of Scarabs wants a piece of the PsyNet for her children (Last Guard).
• Low level F-Psy like Zuli-Anne Flowers are having recurring nightmares of fire and water and death (Music in the Rain, newsletter short story, December 2021)
• There is a storm already echoing through the world, hitting soon, but unable to be located more precisely at the present moment (Anthony Kyriakus, undefined F-Psy, likely Faith NightStar).

Questions:

• Is the Queen of Scarabs/the Architect going tear off an empty piece and move her children there or take any piece and do what with the normal Psy that live in that region as well?
• Can anyone get into that piece of PsyNet, who wasn’t there when it got torn off?
• Can Psy get out of that piece of PsyNet if the relocate (like the empaths moved to the training grounds? Does the PsyNet have to be in one piece to do that reanchoring?
• Can Psy get out of the torn of piece by “dying” and relocating physically like Ashaya did?
• Can they get out by creating their own network like the Forgotten and Lauren family did?
• Can Canto go to the border of the torn off piece and create another “moving of the Stars” Occlusion to move all the Psy over or does that only work when the PsyNet is “whole”?
• If we still go on the hypothesis the Queen of Scarabs is Shoshanna Scott and lives in Henry’s mansion in London, she most logically should tear of the piece of PsyNet that goes with London, or Great Britain. About that region and its inhabitants, we know nothing at all so far. About Europe we know very little, the attacks in Copenhagen and Geneva, Ming Le Pon being in France, Shoshanna in London.
• Does the tearing of a piece off the PsyNet create the Storm of fire and water and death that is being foreseen?

To do list:

• We need to tap Trinity contacts (Arrows, Kaleb and Ivan Mercant), our own roaming and stationed in Europe. (Lukas)
• How do we prepare for a storm of fire and water and death? We have a long coast! If it is a tsunami, we need plans to evacuate our people safely and fast. Same with flooding. (Max + Mr. Wong)
• Tornados are unusual here, tap contacts with Tornado experience. (Anthony)
• Who is responsible for fire stuff here? Contact the person and persons responsible and get the crisis plans for the whole region. Get the emergency contact information to spread out along the network for fastest response possible. (Sienna + Dorian)
• How do we prepare for a storm of death? This is too unspecific. Nothing to be done right now.
• Check our EM Net contacts are correct. (everyone)

The meeting ended after much discussion but all agreed on this:

Whoever this Queen of Scarabs is, she better stay far away from our corner of the world. She would be beyond stupid to set her Queendom here!!!!

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See you all soon in San Francisco in Nalini Singh's Psy-Changeling Trinity World (Storm Echo, Book 6, 2022). 🤗💖🤗

 

expressing myself

I haven't posted anything for a long time ...

but today I feel inspired.

I got inspired by a talk with a friend.

About something that I have, that is soooo very normal to me, that I don't see or feel or realize it at all, but is a problem for others.
She made me see clearly that it is an ability, that I always had it and that it is worthy putting it out there.
It drove my mother crazy .. still does.
I do it in big ways or little ways .. but I always do.

She said it often and repeatedly before .. but today it clicked.

I express myself. ... I always express myself, and I don't even think about it.
Well, I think about it and get mad when I don't do it, which happens too.

But so often I do it and don't recognize it.
Obviously I do it a lot more than I realize and more often than not.

Often I think I do not express myself because I stopped dancing and singing. I haven't written a blog for more than half a year. I can't draw or paint better than a 5 year old.

But I do express myself in myriad ways every day.
It is just sooo very normal too me. 

The most obvious: I wear what I like. I wear what feels good that day. I wear what makes me feel good in the situation. I like stripes, dots and colors. I like compfy and practical. I like funky and natural.

native creative - dots among dots

Even if I have to dress according to a dress code, I always look for ways to express myself, like little things: earings, a butterfly in the hair, socks, stockings, a button, a hat.
I don't care about age appropriateness or class or what's "in" or "out", I don't care nor know what I am supposed to wear.
This is what drives my mother crazy. She always asked me: "Is this ok?" When my answer always is: "Do you feel good?" ... Which is obviously the wrong answer, every time! She even once stood in front of me in a group picture so nobody could see my pants, because she thought they weren't appropriate.

I even wear halfgloves and hoods in summer .. if I am cold. I don't care what people think. I don't like to freeze - period.

I express myself in my apartment, the big and the little things. After a friend helped me a lot when I renovated the floor, she was totally excited about putting the furniture in differently and I was curious, so I let her. Turns out, it doesn't work for me. The couch is where it was planned to be, but the sun is now on the other side of the room. So I sit on the floor in the sun all the time, when I have a perfectly good sofa sitting by itself in the shady corner.
I express myself in the color on the walls, the pictures on the walls, the kind of lighting.

native creative - wild berry wall with glowing apples

I express myself by riding the bike to work while my perfectly good car sits in the basement.

I express myself by saying NO when yes would be easier.

I express myself by the words I say but also by the way I listen.

I express myself by the way I look at people and really see them.

I express myself by taking the harder road when it feels right.

I express myself by every decision that I make, conscious or unconscious.

Just a few days ago I made the decision to allow myself to express myself through dance and voice when I was very strongly encouraged to be quiet. When I said my truth as a kid, I was accused of destroying the peace. I never understood the not speaking policy, or the silent treatment after I did something perceived wrong. Believe me, I hear you. I hear all of those silent screams.
 

native creative - self expression

Yes, there is the poignancy of choosing to come through a background of silence when all I really care about is expressing myself. All I really long to do is expressing myself in all it's myriad ways.

double life

I haven't written anything for a long time. Everything is happening so fast lately that I have hardly time to breathe or rest. Also topics come and go so fast, before I can write any one down the next has me in its grip.

But this is some overarching issue.

Basically I feel like I am leading a double life.
I pretend to be human. No, that is not the truth. I pretend to be human ONLY.
Obviously I am human. I have a human body, have been born from by a human mother and inhabited this body all my life. I am not a walk in. I have been here from the birth of this body.

But I am not only human. Oh, I feel more human now than I have for a very long time, but I am anything but normally human. Many people call me crazy and I do it even on purpose. Not like Ash (a character from the Guild Hunter series) because I know I will go mad sooner or later. I do it because why the hell not? Why not give myself a little levity? And because this whole human reality is kind of a joke anyway. It is a dream reality and just one of many realities so why take it so totally serious?

Not to say that I don't take all the other realities of my life seriously.
I am a multidimensional being and I live in many dimensions simultaneously. Just like a human does it all the time: smell, hear, watch, feel and taste all at once. Add to that dreams, knowings, perceptions, shamanic travels, inner pictures, and the likes. All of that is just as real to me as the manifested world. Just like all the characters and worlds of my favorite books. For me it is totally normal to go there to visit. It is totally frustrating that I can't! Before I found shamanism I had this overwhelming and maddening desire to shift into animal form and couldn't. I felt so trapped in this weak human body it drove me crazy. Now that I can just go on a shamanic travel and shift, run around the world in whatever form feels good to me, I am more comfortable with my unchangeable human body. It feels unnatural though, that I am not able to truly express all else that I am.

native creative: dragon puzzle by Ravensburger

I just came to the conclusion that it might be safer to not be able to change. As with humanity and aliens, half is fearing them and half is waiting for them to rescue humanity. I might just end up shot or expected to save the world. That answers the double live or coming out of the closet question as well. Confronting humans with realities they are not ready for just increases fear and all variants of it. So I might just have to get used to hiding most of what I really am and pretend to be an ordinary human being. Well, that's what you get for being on the leading edge.

Psy/changeling #15 sneak peak from the ethers

so, now that we all read Nalini Singh's Shard's of Hope, who hasn't wondered who will be starring as the leading couple in the next installment?

I, for one, wondered ... a L.O.T. :-)

my conclusions so far about the next "chapter":

• the hunt for the members and the instigator of the Consortium will continue
• by the Arrows for taking Aden and Zaira
• by Kaleb for nobody plays games with big bad powerful Kaleb Krychek
• by Black Sea for taking their people
• and in a way by all the members of the Trinity Accord.
• the hunt for Black Sea's missing members will continue unabated  
• the Consortium will go active again and target more "people", either from the Ruling Coalition again or members of the Trinity Accord as well

that leads to the following suspects for the next leading characters:

• Members of the Ruling Coalition as they were targeted before
• as most are mated already (Kaleb, Ivy, Aden) that leaves NIKITA and ANTHONY as the only viable suspects on the Ruling Coalition. There were enough hints that something is going on between them. They are both powerful in their own rights but don't actually have the ability themselves to hunt and uncover the Consortium. 
• The Arrows have all the abilities, training and expertise and as Lucas said: "Identify them and we'd be happy to help you take out the trash." it feels like the Arrows are responsible for indentifying the Consortium members. 
• AXL is already in charge of the Op hunting down Aden and Zaira's captors and there is something going on between him and TAMAR. And sure uncovering the identities of the Consortium members will need loooots of "ripping apart shell companies upon shell companies". Rational fact most strongly points toward them. 
• AMIN and CRIS are another option on the Arrow team. They both have had more page time and Amin lead the team hunting down Blake so he is capable of hunting down Consortium members too. 
• I'd have put STEFAN and his unknown lover on my list of suspects too, as he is considered an Arrow and he has the connections to Black Sea, but Nalini already mentioned that she wrote a novella about him. Sorry pal, out of the run for it right at the start.
• The higest stakes right now are with Black Sea as they still have so many missing members.
• MIANE and MALACHAI have the incentive to hunt the Consortium with unrelenting focus even if they have gone quiet for the time being. They also have the expertise, training and resources to do it with their reach across the whole world. 
• The Human Alliance has missing members too and BO is unmated and completely bad ass enough to lead the hunt to dig out and uncover the Concortium with a ruthless and stealthy Black Sea lieutenant by his side. :-)

As to who the instigator of the Consortium is, my bet is on Shoshanna Scott. She had the time and politically ruthless mind to put such a big Op in play. As it is political and not militant in nature, I think she is the prime suspect.

Well, 1 month down and only 11 more to go til we know for sure. Only I already had a glimpse of the new book already. Want a look? *drumroll* ... HERE IT IS!!!!

native creative: LOOK!! Psy/changeling book 15

Isn't it perfect already? ... I hope you think so too.

Until next we "read" ....

slip-sliding through life

before I forget it ...

I've been thinking about writing blogs, how lately most are about inspirational "stuff" and wise spiritual self-help things that are good for everyone.

I've considered this for a while, turned it around and felt about it.

I came to the conclusion that I don't know anything that is good for everyone. Sometimes I hardly know what is good for me ... and then I make a different decision anyway.

Oh, I can do inspirational and have wise and self-help in buckets. I get really great insights on the occasion ... only to fall into the oldest trap ever again minutes later ... and honestly, I am not the "gracefully sitting in the same old trap"-type. I am still fighting and raging and ignoring it til it hurts bad enough for me to finally (after days of miscomfort) calm down enough to sit down and breathe and take a look at it without resistance.

So I spare you and me the motivational bullshit.

It seems to me that our current "spiritual" leaders give the appearance of their lives going smooth and effortless. While we normal types are struggling to stay upright.

Well, I can honestly tell you I am on a tricky slippery patch of road right now. It's muddy and full of surprises, steep at times, twisting ... and honestly: Have you ever gracefully walked through mud? ..  in high heels with your composure intact? ... all while spitting out motivational encouragements? ... Me neither. .. and honestly, I don't even want to ... walk in high heels, be composed or spit out anything.

still kinda graceful slip sliding through life

This is a slippery dirty part of road and I decided to just have fun and enjoy it. So if you'll hear some giggles, swearing, laughter, humphs and thumps, that's me getting down and dirty with my part of road and having fun doing it. I, for one, am not meant to glide over it like nothing happened.

the shadow of patriarchy

before I forget it ...

I've started a blog post some time ago ... about menstrual pain ... that I never finished and never published.

My thoughts from back then are still valid - the nature of the desease is nothing personal but something way bigger. 

native creative - tree hole

First time I saw that "being" it was hardly visible. I only saw a tatter of a black wing or black coat, with the sense of it being masculine. I even had a fall out with a long term therapist and friend over it, because I saw just black and "nothing". Which she thought was due to a lack of faith I had in her but in truth it was exactly the right thing, this being and nature of the desease. It has no place and is hardly visible like fallen soldiers.

I lately came to realize that this black man I see is the shadow of patriarchy and right now of humanity. Lea Hamann mentioned a sickness of humanity a few days after I had my realization, I guess calling it the sickness of humanity fits as well. It also reminds me of Nalini Singh's Dark Mind from her Psy/Changeling series. She describes it as appearing in female shape vers I always see a masculine form. But everything else fits: the malevolence, the rage, the blackness, being formed of unwanted and cut off emotions.

It also always reminds me of leprosy, as almost nothing is left of this being and I feel like I have a black hole in my belly. It's like one of those wrotten out holes in trees where a branch has been cut off and wrotten away into the core of the tree. I have a feeling there was a swing on that branch and play has been cut away.

native creative - tree with hole

Leprosy may not be a threat anymore on earth right now, but humans are loosing parts on another level still. Accoring to the shamanic world view we loose parts and pieces through trauma and the patriarchic time on earth with all its wars and fights gave humans ample opportunity to loose pieces. That hasn't stopped, we still loose parts and pieces of ourselves.

As menstrual pain is a fact of life for many women and kind of "normal", as mothers and gynologists around the world make us want to believe, it makes no sense to me. Evolution creates the most astonishing beings and processes and things, but it creates a painful and therefore energy wasting process, that weakens the female part of the population? Not even going into the "religious" believe that it is the punishment for being female. Obviously not every woman has it either. I have had pain since my first menstruation and torturing pain the last ten years or so. IT IS NOT NORMAL! It is not natural. If half of the male human population had pain of that kind, they would have found a treatment by now. They would have never ever accepted it as part of life and grit their teeth every month for 30 years or so. Let alone let themselves be called whimps.

Women of this earth, don't take the fault for this.

IS HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH YOU.

It is not your fault. As I see it, the nature of this desease is not even feminine but masculine and a residue of our past, of the masculine leading this past episode on earth. Don't let anyone tell you it's your fault and don't sacrifize your feminine body parts!!

Strength attracts ....

before I forget it ...

I always felt strong, even though I am a rather elfish and delicately looking human female. I felt so trapped in this weak human body. It can't run. It can't jump. It can't fly. It gets tired soooo fast.

So last week I sat home breathing and meditating and I saw my superhuman strength invite into my life the darkest meanest being!!!! WHAT THE F***??!!

So I investigated that further. My superhuman strength finds that being interesting! ATTRACTIVE! My superhuman strength finds light and love boring and unattractive. It needs adventure! HE IS TOTALLY BORED BEING HUMAN! ...and yes, he is a he. He even watched dispassionately as the tendrils of the dark being (sickness, whatever) ate his body. Superhuman strength does NOT FEEL ANY PAIN!

summary: My superhuman strength wants superhuman adventures, constantly and never ending thrilling superhuman adventures. adrenaline spiking superhuman adventures.

Superhuman adventure is kinda destructive for a human being, mostly for my human body. No, honestly for all of me. I can't keep up with the destruction my superhuman strength's adventures wreck on my body. I haven't even healed one illness when he already invites the next one in. Because he doesn't feel the pain and gets bored, while all the rest of me is wrecked by pain and sickness.

So I went and had a serious discussion, explaining to strength that he is a selfish bastard instead of a good alpha for his pack. He didn't even know that he had a pack and should have been a good alpha, he only saw and thought about himself. It is normal in our world to have strength sitting on the throne and making the decisions. Looking strong, acting strong, not showing any vulnerabilities, end of patriarchy, adrenaline and adventure seeking, .... So I got my strength of my throne for a while. I hope I have a good female leader somewhere in my arsenal that can take over and make good decisions for all of me.

I love my male and I love my superhuman strength, so it wasn't surprising for me that I had mine making the decisions.What I found surprising is, that I know many strong women. What is suprising in a bad way is, that they all struggle. I read once on facebook: "Everybody strong I ever met, had walked a hard road." I should have saved that, it was written in nicer words, but the meaning is the same.

My question: Why do strong people have a hard life?

Does the strength constantly have to proof itself? I am strong enuf? I won't break even under that much pressure, that much lack, that much pain?
Shouldn't strong people be successful? Shouldn't they bloom, flower, sow seeds and expand?
Shouldn't they have it easy?

Pippi is strong too ... is that why she has constant challenges?
Well, at least Pippi doesn't suffer :-)

Pippi, the strong (from a card)