body-soul connection

I am so ready to forget this ...

but I think it is important for many.

So here it is.
Actually it is unbelievable to me that we as souls about to incarnate on earth were willing to do that to ourselves only to be able to incarnate, to be here! ... Or we were so full of ourselves and believed that we would make it and that it was totally worth it?

Maybe when I leave earth and look back I will say it was worth it but right now: WHAT THE F*?

native creative - souls on earth

On to the facts:
High vibrating beings like angels or ex-humans without karma to name a few, who wanted to incarnate on earth had to come through a low vibrating human mother, because there were no high vibrating mothers on earth back then. If the high vibrating child would have brought in all its energy it would have simply kill the mother. So the child had to lower its frequency to match the frequancy of the chosen mother. In shamanic terms that means leaving lots of soul parts behind. But not only that, also power, strength ... and by withdrawing its presence the fetus couldn't fill its body and later its life with its own presence and energy anymore. As there can't be empty space, the low dark energies of the mother and the world filled the empty spaces. That created a bond, not a loving or supportive, but destructive and restrictive bond between mother and child.

For me it felt like the umbilical cord was feeding me with poison - my mother fed me with poison. It was painful, very painful and there is no way to stop it ... pregnancy is 9 month ... or a little less if I wanted to live ... and as stated before I really wanted to live. So my life started on the wrong foot, with lots of pain, anger, aggression and wanting to get out.

Unfortunately it isn't over after birth and out of the womb, as now there is lots of the mother's energy in the body of the child, a not loving connection and little to no connection between body and soul of the child.

Maybe humans can get to a state of consciousness were they don't need to know about this anymore and the connection between body and soul grows again slowly with more and more of the soul coming into the body again. I could not do it that way and neither solve this on  my own. I needed the support of  two others, a group of three, to be able to move this along.

I always had this niggling feeling that I was kind of sleep walking through my life, that I was not really living. In my dreams I was always the passenger in a car and someone else driving. Whenever I decided something good for me, I had to fight to get it. It felt like living with constant strong head wind while everything that did not serve me came easily and by itself. I was always kind of sick, nothing bad or big, but always kind of impaired, always taking this and that, but I could never hold a healthy state for long. No supplement, no therapy, not even love can balance a weak connection between body and soul.

So If you feel like your standing on quick sand and whatever you do, it just doesn't work - check your body-soul connection with a shaman or therapist you trust.

I am so ready to erase this from my memory drive now ... delete c:

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