little happy things

before I forget it ...

as I am sitting here having my breakfast coffee, I thought about the coffee in connection with happy things. So let's talk about happy things while I sip my coffee. Alas, you can get yourself one too (or a tea) while you read about my happy and hopefully think about your own happy :-)

native creative hack - original: flow magazine

hm? happy things or happy times? or just happy?
for this post let's stay with the little things, that make us happy. Like some knicknack that makes us smile just seeing it, or makes us relax just holding it, that kind of things.

 

native creative - yellow poppy seed

• I have no defense against yellow flowers: sunflowers, gerberas, autumn sneezeweeds, daffodils or goldenrods, doesn't matter - bananas don't work though, it has to be yellow petals.
• I am always in a good mood when I am riding my bike. Not that I am always smiling around the face but even when I am not feeling too good, I feel better once I'm on the bike. It's the fresh air, the wind, the movement, the muscles working and energy flowing, or all of it, whatever, it works for me.
• I always relax instantly holding a warm cup of coffee in my hands. yeah :-)
• When Mamalita calls, I have no chance holding on to my funk. 

in "music (sing and dance) mode" mood

• The right kind of music does the same thing, it gets in on silent feet and suddenly I feel like singing along and dancing.
• On more thing on the relaxing side of happy is taking a walk in the little forest around the corner. It always slows me down, eases the tension and hurry, and puts me into a more productive frame of mind.
• Last but not least when an idea of mine worked out and I create something beautiful. Doesn't matter what it is: a candle that turned out great, a picture that captured the moment right, a practical and aesthetic solution for a problem at my apartment, the newest knitted hat or leg warmers. Each beautifully finished project makes me proud and really happy.

native creative - recycled candles

 ready to let this go and get on with happy  ˙·٠•● ƸӜƷ ●•٠·˙

recycled candles

before I forget it ...

I've been busy this week with Gratitude and applications. BUT I found time in between for some creative stuff. It's a recycle project. All the wax is from old candles, recycled. Even the colors are just what colored wax I had and could use. I had to buy new candlewick, at least for the big candles. For the heart shaped faces I used old stumps from christmas candles :-)

recycled candles - native creative

Clearly I need more candle molds for more variations :-) I started experimenting with layers and I am excited about any new ideas coming up next.

So not ready to forget it.

native creative :-)

before I forget it ...

here are some thing I created lately.

Bluebell aka Illium - native creative

name plate - native creative

wild berry wall color - native creative

heart shaped door knob  - native creative

monkey knot and grandpa hat lamp shade

tooth brush mug - native creative

upcylced planting bags - native creative

punk style new shorts - native creative

some in progress projects:

• flower pedal shaped lamp shade
• mosaic snake on round river stones
• earring display on old potato bag (coffee bag would be nice)
• old ironing board converted into story board
• blackboard 
• couch table made of old thick piece of wood and some legs
• stand up lamp made of a birch branch
• dreamcatcher made into  a tree branch
• ..... 

order of creation not predestined and open to spurs of the moment. :-)

[to be continued]

mourning project update

before I forget it ...

I created 18 granny squares so far - one for every day since I started. I still use the practice yarn I got and it creates squares like that.

altar and mourning squares - native creative

I also created an altar for my dead girl. I light a candle whenever I feel like it. I created it with stuff my girl would have liked, outdoor nature stuff, fairies and angels.
It feels good to have a fixed place for it. I will keep it as long as it feels right, as long as it is nessessary. Aaand when I am done with the squares or that one ball of wool I will decide what they will be together, a planket, a pillowcase, a throw, whatever it wants to be then :-) ... Or I'll even start with some other kind of yarn and add more different looking squares. Who knows?

already forgot it.

Nalini Singh - Judd

before I forget it ...

I am totally on team JUDD. Carassed by Ice was my first book and Judd just ... well, noone comes close to Judd. All males in the series are cool and edible, but Judd, ex-Arrow and Rebel and grrrr yummy.
He even gets a fanclub in the series later on, complete with I love Judd and Judd is my boyfriend T-shirts. I had to have one. Not a generic one, I made Judd MY boyfriend.

Judd is my boyfriend - native creative

My hair might be sticking every which way due to Judd's telekinesis. I couldn't find two of the same shoes in my deliriously happy dreamy state. But it matters nothing because JUDD is MY boyfriend!

If you want to know more about Judd, read his book. I am not gonna tell you anything.

Just in the native creative department I was thinking about doing a "the ghost is my shadow" shirt ... Can't do it though, until he gets a fanclub, which is unlikely as he is feared more than anything. "I love the ghost" is out of the question. What the heck, I don't care about the ghost, he gets too much attention already and  now he sneaked in here too and got himself prime time. aaaaarrrgggg

 time to forget ....... what?

mourning project

before I forget it ...

in the flow of the soul retrieval I realised that I wasn't just sick at age 6 with a virus, it really changed me, a lot. I DIED. My body obviously survived and some soul aspects stayed too. I asked myself what I lost. EVERYTHING. MYSELF. my present. my future. my love. my light. my being. ME. It totally fits with the aspect my friend met at the soul retrieval: a hollow empty shell child playing at a riverbank. It looks ok from the outside, but it is empty. It has no life. It's more an object, a thing like a wardrobe. It has no desires, no needs, no feelings, no emotions, NO NOTHING! It is obviously safe from being hurt as it can't feel anything! AND it is the perfect kid for busy care takers because it is low-maintenance. It plays by itself forever, doesn't need any attention, any care. It's almost invisible so easy and light, more like a ghost, but surely no burden.

So I decided to actually mourn the loss of myself. Mamalita told me about a project Clarissa Pinkola Estés who wrote "Women Who Run With the Wolves" did with a group of women: sewing patchwork dresses as a ritual of mourning. I don't like sewing, but I can knit and crochet. I decided to do it as a "one granny square a day" project. I haven't crocheted for a while, so those are the getting into it and warming up results of the first two days.

2. day and 1.day results mourning project

I also made a little "grave" for my little girl on the balkony yesterday. I just took a terracotta pot, filled it with earth and decorated it with pine cones, sticks, heart shaped stones and sea shells. I'm lighting a candle now.

eager to forget it ...

holy objects

before I forget it ....

this are the holy objects of sacrifice and suffering. They are so holy, you can't use them, can't touch them. They are to be treated with reference, being near them is ..... 

holy objects of sacrifice

 
Being precise, they are not MY holy objects of suffering but hyena's holy objects of sacrifize and suffering and not even hyena suffered for them, but her mother. So they are beyond holy to hyena because her mother sacrificed and suffered to pay for them.

Why is suffering making something untouchably worthy?
Are there holy objects of happiness? Holy objects of ease?
Would she treat them with reference if the money had been earned with happiness and ease?
.... Do I have to answer that?

These are my holy objects of play and creativity and creation and ease ...

patch up your tea with native creative

and another holy object of friendship and fun.

fairy sparkle with native creative

 ... and I'm gonna make lots more holy objects of laughter and love and light and joy and freedom and abundance. and holy objects of crazy. and .....

... let's forget about the suffering already :-)